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My mind is layers and layers of distortion, obscure incentives, self-aware tricks and trust in a fucked up form of placebo effect... and from what my alien brain can gather about the human race, yours is too! :D

Good to see that MASTODON doesn't force me to convert my dev snippets into .gif files in order for them to be accessible when I post them... you guys get some silky smooth 60FPS footage :D

gfycat.com/faintoffbeatarmedcr

Today's another day for a little madness in YouTube video form. Stay tuned for tonight! :D

I fucking DID it holy JESUS christ almighty the VIDEO RECORDING IS DONE im ALMOST THERE just gotta EDIT some stuff i'm gonna get so fucking stoned tonight

The REAL treat of Mastodon is being able to type whatever the hell I want because it's smaller than Twitter and therefore I feel 100% less socially anxious about it B)

I re-read everything I posted. I can't communicate for shit. Such is the paradox of trying to communicate half-incommunicable concepts.

I'm not manic, I promise :D

However, the funny thing is that even my last paragraph about how I expect you to understand my posts is not your perspective.

It's my perspective... OF your perspective. Weird, huh?

So ultimately, what's my point? I feel that putting this here is kind of a rationale for my atypical behavior for those who are interested. I know that not many people will be, but hey- what does it matter? I like thinking and talking about this stuff.

That is, it's a purely subjective and relative concept.

My perspective(as much as I can express it) is that of trying my best in earnest to explain what the fuck is going on in my brain. Your view of my posts is likely different- for you, it's filtered through the image of a human being.

You likely cringe- these things are deeply personal. These things feel silly- and they are! I'm taking great liberties in my pursuit of a grounded, well-reasoned and well-understood perspective of my mind.

If by "post" we include the *essential experience* of the post, including all the connotations, meanings, associations with myself and external factors, then the information conveyed by the post can only be said to exist "in the eye of the beholder".

The strings that knit my mind together to produce the strange externalizations that you see before you are to me the only mind that I know, to you the behaviours of a LARPing weirdo.

Let me explain.

My mind is layers and layers of distortion, obscure incentives, self-aware tricks and trust in a fucked up form of placebo effect... and from what my alien brain can gather about the human race, yours is too! :D

I finally put the source code for my score counters video on GitHub, if anyone's interested... :D

github.com/AlexHoratio/score-c

I honestly cannot wait to start working on a game again...

I woke up feeling soo sick, and I'm getting so burned out of this fucking video tutorial stuff, but I must press onwards>.<

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