Nox and the Pack :Fire_Enby:<p>Having to maintain my relationship to the <a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/narcissist" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>narcissist</span></a> that abused me is becoming the biggest challenge of my life. No contact is not an option as we have kids.</p><p>I'm processing the emotional abuse I experienced. I'm grieving the woman that never was her. It's a lot of very raw and very intense emotions.</p><p>And I'm doing all of that while I need to regularly interact with my abuser. It's a gigantic mind fuck.</p><p>I'm reclaiming a lot of my agency by <a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/yellowRocking" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>yellowRocking</span></a> extensively. Killing her with kindness. Ignoring her emotional baits that are meant to trigger a fight I'd lose anyway. I'm getting <a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/revenge" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>revenge</span></a> by being my best fucking self. Let the kids see that unconditional kindness is possible while enforcing boundaries.</p><p>But I'm not gonna lie. It takes my everything. Being kind to my abuser when everything in me screams for justice is a challenge like no other. <a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/RadicalAcceptance" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>RadicalAcceptance</span></a> is most definitely non-optional.</p><p>I might not win the battles but I will win the war.</p><p><a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/trauma" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>trauma</span></a> <a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/narcissisticAbuse" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>narcissisticAbuse</span></a> <a href="https://tech.lgbt/tags/actuallyAutistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>actuallyAutistic</span></a></p>